I don't think it's normal for the average teenager to harbour homocidal thoughts is it? The last time I checked, most of them tend to harbour suicidal ones in this emo era. Xujun's writing a play about the sane and the insane and I'm promised the role of a homicidal maniac. Funny, it seems that's what I've been thinking about these few days - Killing people...People dying. With the BSC people leaving, more specifically Yanyu and Chomz, I don't know about me anymore.
Emotional weakness on my part? Lyinne would scoff. Whatever happened to cold and calculating me? Perhaps. I just know it won't be the same, or rather, it'll be much more difficult. No more cheery chomz in front of me to put a smile on my face or to turn to during math. No more Yan yu to talk to in a non-westernised manner and laugh about xujun-type jokes.
Difificult. I'll adapt of course. Like everyone else does. But how I will is the question. Withdraw further in and strengthen my defenses? Think more sadistically? Descend into despondence? I don't think so and I certainly don't hope so. The ideal case of course is to spread my roots elsewhere. After all when I'm repotted...I need to try the other kinds of soil don't I?
Hmm...I might even grow better.
Dark Memories[5:00 PM]
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Plant
Toxicodendron Radicans
Toxicodendron radicans is a plant in the family Anacardiaceae. The name is sometimes spelled "Poison-ivy" in an attempt to indicate that the plant is not a true Ivy (Hedera). It is a woody vine that is well known for its ability to produce urushiol, a skin irritant that causes an itching rash for most people, technically known as urushiol-induced contact dermatitis.
Les souhaits
1) Master French and Japanese
2) Become more sociable
3) Master Toxicology in Plants, Molecular Biology, Botany and the Psychology of Persuasion
4) Be at least half as good as Monsieur Levet in Vovinam
