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Wednesday, November 05, 2008

The Thinker

As an INTP, your primary mode of living is focused internally, where you deal with things rationally and logically. Your secondary mode is external, where you take things in primarily via your intuition.

INTPs live in the world of theoretical possibilities. They see everything in terms of how it could be improved, or what it could be turned into. They live primarily inside their own minds, having the ability to analyze difficult problems, identify patterns, and come up with logical explanations. They seek clarity in everything, and are therefore driven to build knowledge. They are the "absent-minded professors", who highly value intelligence and the ability to apply logic to theories to find solutions. They typically are so strongly driven to turn problems into logical explanations, that they live much of their lives within their own heads, and may not place as much importance or value on the external world. Their natural drive to turn theories into concrete understanding may turn into a feeling of personal responsibility to solve theoretical problems, and help society move towards a higher understanding.

INTPs value knowledge above all else. Their minds are constantly working to generate new theories, or to prove or disprove existing theories. They approach problems and theories with enthusiasm and skepticism, ignoring existing rules and opinions and defining their own approach to the resolution. They seek patterns and logical explanations for anything that interests them. They're usually extremely bright, and able to be objectively critical in their analysis. They love new ideas, and become very excited over abstractions and theories. They love to discuss these concepts with others. They may seem "dreamy" and distant to others, because they spend a lot of time inside their minds musing over theories. They hate to work on routine things - they would much prefer to build complex theoretical solutions, and leave the implementation of the system to others. They are intensely interested in theory, and will put forth tremendous amounts of time and energy into finding a solution to a problem with has piqued their interest.

INTPs do not like to lead or control people. They're very tolerant and flexible in most situations, unless one of their firmly held beliefs has been violated or challenged, in which case they may take a very rigid stance. The INTP is likely to be very shy when it comes to meeting new people. On the other hand, the INTP is very self-confident and gregarious around people they know well, or when discussing theories which they fully understand.

The INTP has no understanding or value for decisions made on the basis of personal subjectivity or feelings. They strive constantly to achieve logical conclusions to problems, and don't understand the importance or relevance of applying subjective emotional considerations to decisions. For this reason, INTPs are usually not in-tune with how people are feeling, and are not naturally well-equiped to meet the emotional needs of others.

The INTP may have a problem with self-aggrandizement and social rebellion, which will interfere with their creative potential. Since their Feeling side is their least developed trait, the INTP may have difficulty giving the warmth and support that is sometimes necessary in intimate relationships. If the INTP doesn't realize the value of attending to other people's feelings, he or she may become overly critical and sarcastic with others. If the INTP is not able to find a place for themself which supports the use of their strongest abilities, they may become generally negative and cynical. If the INTP has not developed their Sensing side sufficiently, they may become unaware of their environment, and exhibit weakness in performing maintenance-type tasks, such as bill-paying and dressing appropriately.

For the INTP, it is extremely important that ideas and facts are expressed correctly and succinctly. They are likely to express themselves in what they believe to be absolute truths. Sometimes, their well thought-out understanding of an idea is not easily understandable by others, but the INTP is not naturally likely to tailor the truth so as to explain it in an understandable way to others. The INTP may be prone to abandoning a project once they have figured it out, moving on to the next thing. It's important that the INTP place importance on expressing their developed theories in understandable ways. In the end, an amazing discovery means nothing if you are the only person who understands it.

The INTP is usually very independent, unconventional, and original. They are not likely to place much value on traditional goals such as popularity and security. They usually have complex characters, and may tend to be restless and temperamental. They are strongly ingenious, and have unconventional thought patterns which allows them to analyze ideas in new ways. Consequently, a lot of scientific breakthroughs in the world have been made by the INTP.

The INTP is at his best when he can work on his theories independently. When given an environment which supports his creative genius and possible eccentricity, the INTP can accomplish truly remarkable things. These are the pioneers of new thoughts in our society.

So what's your stand? Somehow I can only identify with sarcastic and critical.

Birthday wasn't that impressive really. If it was the drama club's idea of a present, the drama training was great really. We had all sort of vocal exercises, warm-up games to improve reaction and improvisation, sound exercises, breathing and relaxation exercises and of course the many activities like sharing, impromptu skit and 24 hours were really interesting. Sharing was simple, just stating of names and what you see yourself as. I said "Poison Ivy" after much consideration. Mmhmm. Sherwin was "water". Delvin...Black pepper beef? Xujun was a scapel. And Greg a crayon. Guess what we did for impromptu skit? We were just given the scene "Office". And the first thing that came to my mind: Womanizer. So we were discussing/wasting our precious preparation time talking about who ought to be Britney Bitch and the guy, and err...the photocopying machine strangely. Then I hurriedly stopped us from actually doing a skit of that and suggested Vancome Lady! But even for her we had so many choices. We initially decided on a clinical office but then changed our decision to a banking office and went with the Hostage negotiator episode.

Got quite a few laughs for that with Xujun's imitation of Vancome. Then had 24 hours whereby you pretend to be someone and mime all the actions, starting at a certain time, and ending 24 hours later. I was "Poison Ivy" molecular biologist, planting an anthrax bomb to kill people. Then spending the rest of the day laughing at all the screams and reports of deaths on television. Established myself as an "enemy".

Then rushed home as my mother spontaneously told me to do so and got whisked off to Holland Village for dinner. Ate at 211 roof terrace cafe which I initially was very displeased with owing to its obscure location. But of course, the food turned out to be great though I didn't take any pictures given the fact that we dined outside with only a candle flame for most of the light. Unless you count the moon and stars (One star, moon was a crescent). Drank margarita for the first time. Frozen margarita actually, and it's pretty good, not as bitter as wine, nor as strong. Fruity flavours went very well with it.

Went back to my grandma's house and had another celebration. Actually, it was just the cutting of a cake my uncle insisted on buying. So we had mini celebration with the song and photo. Blah Blah. But the best part was when my grandma smiled because that's so rare. Although I feel kind of guilty for waking her up.

Wasted a whole lot of time today playing Gunz. And then I went to the library to meet Shiyi for City of Rats. Read for an hour or so there. Talked. And then went home for more Gunz. And then dota. An interesting thing I discovered is how powerful the invoker's firestorm is. Yes, the old invoker. At level 6 he could triple kill if done properly. Or take down a tower singlehandedly. Because as the fireballs rain down, they only damage organic creatures but afterwards when they leave behind those magical flame thingies, those detonate and damage everything. So 6 of those near a tower, each detonating for 150 dmg in a 300 aoe. Imagine the damage to the tower when you're just level 6. And 6x150 to three enemies. See? I double-killed against the retarded ai. But imagine aoe stunning..together with detonation...Ouch. Considering the max number of fireballs - 16....Multiplied by 150. Anyone staying behind in that AOE can be potentially dealt a 2400 nuke. Destroying one of the raxes instantly, or any tower for that matter.

I really want to go for drama on Thursday...But sigh...I'm leaving for Vietnam tomorrow and returning only on Sunday. So till then, a la prochaine?

Thanks Shiyi for City of Rats. Shall be my reading companion.

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