Dark Garden

Sunday, June 22, 2008

I just visited Ming Xuan's blog.

I just realised...His blog is the true success...I do admit it...Blogs? Other than for the sole purposes of practising one's writing skills (Though this is hardly applicable to most of my peers) and recording of events...There exists the ostensible reason - Popularity.

To move up higher the social ladder, a coveted thought no doubt to many. And yet...That dictates the boundaries of the blog itself, no? If this was the purpose of its existence, as a tool for acquiring attention...The blog, per se, would be restricted to only those in the blogger's social circle. And then one contemplates:

What of inspiration...Beyond?

To venture into the Great Unknown, not of the netherworld, but of cyberspace.

A queer thing the internet is. It, links people up.

What triggered this epiphany of mine then? Well, recently two people (termed blog-jumpers though I prefer "blog-hoppers") visited Ming Xuan's blog. And as far as I know, unless this is some elaborate conspiracy, they are of no relation to Ming Xuan and very possibly halfway across the world from him. To have a stranger from the other side of the hemisphere visit your blog...It does show something; your blog is really something. Ming Xuan's blog...I just get that feeling close to the heart when I read it...That feeling that it's the genuine article. That Ming Xuan writes...For the pure sake of writing. It doesn't need to be in flawless and profound English nor contain aesthetic feasts. Not the ecclectic range of functions nor the impressive interfaces...It's...Well...Indescribable...

I ventured into the blogs of the two "unknowns" that commented on Ming Xuan's blog. Eric Olsen and Betty Nurse. Eric's yet-to-mature blog delves into metaphysics with The purpose of life and what-not. Ramblings about the purpose of life being to help others and thus derive joy from that, achieving happiness. I smile bitterly at that. Quoting Candice from Heroes: "You're too young to understand how the world sucks." True, I'm not exactly some adult with a philosophy degree or has seen the world but I know. This isn't the world. With that mindset you won't achieve anything. As much as everyone would like to help, they'll definitely help themselves first. It's always self-gratification before anything else. Mothers feed babies their blood in the Si Chuan earthquake. A self-sacrificial act no doubt. And yet still, is this act against the pre-wired principles of self-expediency that lie within each and every human? I say no. The mother in question would never let her child die. It hurts too much. That is why she's willing to take that course of action. She is in other words, looking out for herself first. It is merely a question of which loss brings more pain; the loss of her child, or the loss of a few pints of blood. In this case, the emotional blow that will befall her should she sacrifice her child is far greater than the comparably minute amount of blood. Naturally, she saves herself from more pain, and does something seemingly self-sacrificial. Call me cold, unfeeling, beastial. A heart of ice maybe. No, we in the Sciences must be skeptical and look at things...Systematically and logically. And most importantly of all, realistically. It's a sad truth, before we help others, do we even have the means to help ourselves? Do we benefit from helping others? And that is why the world is sick. The creations themselves are corrupted. We look out for ourselves, always, before others. And that is why no amount of selflessness will ever be enough. Our world is sick from the time that it was born, not only because of greenhouse gas emissions.

Betty's blog rambles about the all too cliche "love". Love according to her blog changes the world. For the worse or for the better then? This attitude must be cultivated within me, the never-ending questioning. That is precisely why I find this paragraph on flaws concerning reasoning absurd. Well maybe I'm too far-fetched with my criticism considering the fact that her thoughts on the discouragement of reasoning was in the context of marital relationships but still...The analytical mind was bestowed upon us by Mother Nature for a reason. The most fundamental being of course that of survival, that animalistic instinct. But reasoning, is it not only right to do so? Only through discussions do we derive results. But of course in the lengthy and drawn-out process...Accidents occur and jeopardy swoops down mercilessly. And yet to progress, we must try. Love I say, is merely a tool in the circle of life. One of the many gears that cause it to turn unceasingly, perpetually. Or quite so, chemical chaos as I would say from a scientific perspective.

I didn't ask to be born to this world.

No one did.

Kudos to you once again Ming Xuan.

Dark Memories[12:29 AM]

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